It’s an implant!

What. The. Fuck.

I’m working backwards because today was surprising.

I went in for my first Zoladex shot. All I knew about it was that it’s supposed to suppress my hormones and that I’ll get it every quarter.

Well, my very favorite nurse (WHO IS MOVING TO ALASKA I HATE YOU!) came and got me and I asked about where it was gonna go. The stomach. Shit, okay. Then she explains that it’s an IMPLANT. She brought me ice and had me ice the lower stomach area for a while. She printed off the side effects and all the other information I needed to know (that the docs didn’t give me). Thank god for nurses (especially my favorite one!).

I didn’t look this time like I normally have to look at shots. Good news is that I didn’t really feel the shot going in; ice definitely did the trick. I bled a bit more than most, I think! Nothing alarming it just took longer to clot. It felt a little weird after the numbness from the ice wore off, but on the scale of “things I’ve been through,” this is pretty low. BUT. This may be a good reason to do ovary removal, instead. We’ll see!

So that was today. Yesterday, I had my port removed! I felt less nervous about this one because (1) I’ve been through it before and (2) it goes quicker because they only have to make the one bigger incision instead of two. I definitely had less sedation this time. I’d equate it to zoning out – I was thinking that I wanted more sedation so I don’t have to remember this shit, but I also think I zoned out for longer than it felt. I remember listening to the techs talk and being annoyed that here I was, not sufficiently sedated, and yet…all I recall is some shit moving around on the other side of the surgical curtain.

The lidocaine wore off much faster this time, so I could feel the skin stretching/pulling soon after. But, not bad! It’s day two now and I don’t feel much unless I move that area too much.

The “sun”burn is healing well. I am now peeling. I’ll post photos of it at some point – it’s pretty gnarly. There’s a big circle of new skin under my arm that’s kinda painful. Mostly really sore. Hoping that goes away soon.

No more appointments until my next Phesgo infusion!