Going into Round 3

It’s been a hard couple of weeks, and not really because of the cancer treatment. That’s icing on the cake. (That’s some sarcasm.)

If I needed verification that I was more stressed than usual, my Apple Watch told me so. My heart rate has been trending higher for the last two weeks (and that was on top of a higher heart rate).

The good news is that I’ve been pretty good about taking care of myself. I drank all the water and took the naps. Talked to my therapist. Meditated. Slept well. And if I ever forget to do any of it, Lindsay reminds me. 😉

Shout out to all you who have distracted me with things. It helps, a lot. More than you know. So keep the messages coming. You are the family I found.

So today was the blood draw, which gets drawn from my port. This is much easier on me. There’s really no pain (yeah, I’m weird) and then there’s no extra pokes – they can usually find it. It being a vein that returns blood.

The BEST part of this week was getting to see my coworkers. Two of whom it’s been a literal year since I’ve seen them. And it was the best.

I also got to connect with one of my favorite college people – my ROOMIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. And once again I’m floored by what cancer (cancer?!) has allowed me to do.

So don’t feel too bad for me. The worst of it is what’s happening to my mom. And, in fact, I have a higher heart rate and blood pressure. I am working on that. But I know it and can work on it. That’s half the game.

Round three is halfway through treatment. EFF yeah. I am feeling good about it and again, half the battle. I feel weird when people are “inspired” by me, and yet, I feel f*cking strong and ready to do what I need to do, so yeah. Get inspired, people – do the things you need to do. It’s paying off when I need it the most. Be you, do you. Authenticity goes a long way, my friends. If you see mine, you KNOW that I see yours.

Chemo tomorrow. I’m ready for it. ?